Sunday, November 30, 2008

Thankful

November 30, 2007 was the worst day of my life. To hear that things are not well with your baby is an understatement. To listen to a doctor tell you that organs are where they shouldn't be makes you want to turn back time and figure out what went wrong. I remember thinking, "No, no this isn't happening. This isn't the way it's supposed to be." I felt so devastated, but yet there was still a part of me that knew God was still in control and He had a plan. It might be different than the plan that I thought I needed and wanted, but it was still His plan. I have never prayed for something so much in my life. Matt and I prayed throughout the process that God would be glorified and there would be no doubt that He was the one who healed and saved this baby.


I am thankful that He answered our prayers in ways we never could have expected. I am thankful and humbled by God's grace, mercy, power, and love. I am thankful that I have experienced God's hand divinely placed on Matt, Beckett, and me. I am thankful that God gave me Beckett to take care of, love on, and raise him to be a man seeking after God's heart. I am thankful that everyday I get to hold, hug, and kiss Beckett. I am thankful that I get to see Beckett breath, laugh, smile, and I am thankful to the wonderful Maker and Creator who intricately formed and made him so perfect. I am thankful that November 30th is no longer associated with fear, sadness, and despair, but with hope and joy that we have an amazing Savior who performs miracles. I am thankful.









6 comments:

Hillary Kouba said...

I love that last picture! He's adorable!

Jessica Hewitt said...

Such an awesome testimony! He is so stinkin' cute. You guys look great too. :-) Happy Belated Thanksgiving!

The Rowe Crew said...

I love this post and I am so thankful too...thankful that you guys have such a great blessing to show God's power!!

Beau, Melissa, and Brynne said...

What an amazing miracle..this sweet boys life! We love you guys!

Holly said...

When I heard this news that evening a year ago...so many feelings came to the surface. Regardless, you have to put those aside and just pray that God will bless you with the ability to comfort your friend.
It is without mention...that God has already performed miracles in your life through the way of sweet Beckett. He must have big plans for this little guy...
On the other side of things, it has been a blessing to watch your family and your faith grow in such a trying time. You and Matt have been an inspiration to us and I am certain many others.
I love you. We are looking forward to celebrating many more milestones that Beckett crosses!!!

All About Baby Boomerang said...

Okay - so I am new to this blog thing - but I loved your story - so powerful and a wonderful testimony that God is in control!! I miss you and hope you are having fun w/ Ms Em next door!!! Go Southpark! Tiff